After his talk with Elaina, Robert spent
more and more time in the realm.
Although I enjoyed every moment…
…it wasn’t exactly comforting. Robert reminded me of someone trying to have
all of the fun they could before something changed.
Sort of like a bachelor’s party.
In the realm, we discovered that we could
do anything that we imagined.
Normal things that Robert wanted to do,
but Elaina refused to do, we did.
It was like Robert was attempting to live
a normal existence in his dreams, but for me it was too real.
When he woke up, he went off to live his
life, but this was my
life. The only life I had left to live.
We were like kids in the realm; him
fulfilling his need for normalcy…
Me, fulfilling my need for
companionship…something I never experienced when I was alive.
Although the whole experience was
bittersweet, I decided to enjoy it for as long as I could.
I realized nothing lasted forever, but at
the time, I had a friend.
And I could tell that he cared about our
friendship as much as I did.
What I couldn’t tell was if he wanted
more than friendship…like I did.
I was too shy and afraid of rejection to
ask him, so I kept my side of our conversations away from that topic.
I learned to be content with his every
glance and the feel of his hands in mine.
But it was hard and it was obvious that I
cared about him. My need to protect him
came out all of the time.
Even if it caused me pain in the process.
“You okay?” Robert laughed.
I don’t think he realized that this was
all real to me. I don’t think he took it
as serious because he could just wake up at any moment and it would all be just
a dream…temporary…only in his mind.
But I had my feelings completely tied to
these moments.
I wasn’t just a doll he could take off
the shelf to play with from time to time; only to put me back when he was done.
I was in love…completely lost in love.
But I didn’t mind so much until I heard
the one thing that I always regretted hearing him whisper, because it reminded
me that this was all so temporary…
“It’s time for me to wake up.”
Labels: Moonlight Visions