Driving away was hard, because I
desperately wanted Nick back. Not the Nick that I’d just left behind, but the
Nick I knew before Carmina came along.
I should have been happy to be leaving…I
was finally rid of Carmina, but the cost…the cost was far too high.
As I drove, my mind drifted back to how
happy our life was before…
I thought back to the day I came back
from the hospital after finding out I was pregnant.
In the beginning, Nick wasn’t even sure
he wanted kids.
Especially when his frequent business
trips and constant work from home began to put a strain on our marriage.
But when I started feeling tired and
experiencing a little morning sickness, he began to get very excited about the
possibility of me being pregnant.
I cleared my throat to let Nick know that
I had entered the room.
“Am
I a daddy?” He asked as soon as he saw
me.
Nick was so much warmer and kinder
then…he cared about my feelings. He was
protective and affectionate. I’ve missed
that.
“Nick…we’re going to be parents.”
Nick
stared at first with the same type of smile on his face that I had when the
doctor told me…one full of disbelief and joy.
Then he pulled me in close, ”Diane…this,
this has to be the happiest day of my life…”
“Mine too,” I whispered as I held him as
tight as I could.
He pulled back suddenly, “Say it again…say I’m going to be a
daddy!” He said as if he hearing the
words again would make it more true.
“You’re going to be a daddy…we’re going
to be parents!” I confirmed.
Nick
spun me around with a smile on his face.
Then he startled me with a sudden
unexpected dip. “I hope we have a little
girl and I hope she’s as pretty as you,” he said.
“I
hope she’s prettier than me,” I added.
“Impossible,” he said before leaning down
and kissing me.
I felt so safe and loved there in his
arms…as if nothing could ever come between us.
After our kiss he pulled me back
upright, “Thank you for coming into my
life and making me so happy.”
“Well, I didn’t exactly do this on my
own,” I said with a giggle.
He laughed for a while before becoming
very serious. “I couldn’t imagine
sharing this moment with anyone else in the world...you mean everything to me.”
“Same here,” I responded with tears
threatening to escape my eyes.
“So I guess I’ll be giving up my office
soon,” he said.
“Yeah…so
sorry, this room will soon be overrun with smelly diapers and spit up!”
“Sounds good to me…very good,” he said
which meant a lot, because Nick spent most of his time in his home
office.
I
responded with a kiss.
I was so happy then; so much prettier,
healthier and excited about the future…
But I came back to reality the closer I
got to my destination.
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